I should have named this post “without me,” but, either way…
You see, I used to believe my friends and family needed me to survive–that something bad would happen to them if I ”abandoned” them (more on that later). And, that something “bad” would happen to me.
In my mind, I loved my friends and family SO. FREAKIN’. MUCH., that I actually believed they wouldn’t be able to survive–and, even more “delusionally”–they wouldn’t be able to move forward without me in their life. I mean, talk about savior mentality!
But on the flip–or, as I now say “in the mirror”–I believed I wouldn’t be able to survive/move forward/thrive without them, either.
I had a completely warped sense of reality and, sadly and nearly tragically, an utterly and completely warped sense of God.
This journey, while incredibly humbling, has also been entirely edifying. God opened my eyes–widely–and showed me how my “friends” did even better without me and, somewhat sadly, yet thankfully and coincidentally, I, without them.
Because some relationships are toxic and we have to let them go, even when we feel strongly that we can’t or we don’t know how.
In my case, it was Divine Intervention that helped lead the way. I just couldn’t see myself set free, so God orchestrated this whole scenario where he was able to send Jesus to intercede for me. Praise God!
It’s been several years and seemingly several hundred revelations since that happened, but I made it through. One day at a time, I made it through.
And so will you.
With humility and love,
Michele
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