As many of you know, historically, I have been afflicted with something known biblically as “double-mindedness” and have agonized over every decision–big and small–I have had to make.
And, considering it has been two weeks since I announced I would continue with grad school this semester, and I haven’t changed my mind <cringes and bites fingernails>, I see cause for celebration.
WOO. HOO.
However, I also see cause for pause. Because I have–and still do–feel God blessing me with wisdom, revelation, and clarity around this major decision that will–in many ways–dictate the course of my life.
While I know full well there is no right or wrong decision, and that a degree will not make me a better–or even a good–counselor, I have a tendency toward hyper-vigilance because of how certain decisions and lifestyle choices have effected my body *physiologically* in the past, and have even contributed to a serious health condition known as cancer.
YIKES!
So, of course, I am, well, EXTRA. CAUTIOUS.
So I have been spending mucho tiempo in personal reflection determining whether this decision is safe for my body and overall health and wellbeing, or whether it’s not.
While also realizing my body should not control my life and that I can submit what the thought of endless reading and coursework does to my nervous system to the Lord and realize, uh, it’s just anxiety.
With all this being said, I want to encourage you to spend some time reflecting today on how your body feels, how energy is flowing, and where you might feel or sense some resistance, and tap into what it might be connected to.
Is it your work? Relationship/s? Some other lifestyle choice?
Fear?
The body talks. We only have to be willing to listen.
“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go” Literally, wherever. Joshua 1:9
THANK YOU, JESUS!!!
With humility and love,
Michele
Next week: “Podcast and paintings and homework, oh my! Not to mention Substack <huff>”
